August 12th

So today I helped my mom in the yard wich I have to finish tomorrow it wasn't to bad plus I get payed. I was just worried about the yard cause of snakes and stuff I hate snakes and most other little creatures that live in weeds. I started hardcore looking for a job again wich is good I think. Hopefully if I can keep a more positive attitude towards it I can get better results. One of my problems with jobs is that I am pretty anti social and kind of freeze up when I am meeting new people. I am really self conscious about the way people percieve me and I think that I spent so much time trying to be different when I was younger that I ended being different and now I don't even want to be. I really need to join a gym I think that will be one of the first things I do when I get a job that and get a new car. I currently drive an old 91 truck that has a broken window. Wich doesnt really bother me except for the fact that its been raining almost everyday so now my truck is soaked all the time wich even that I am getting used to. I want to learn how to build stuff even though I have never really had a knack for that so I was thinking about going to trade school to learn how to work on the bodies of cars. I have never really taken the time to learn about cars and whatnot but now that I am getting older I am starting to get more interested in it and learning how to do body work would be a pretty sweet job especially if I Could apply it to my car one day. Also I hate when people talk car around me and I have no idea what they are talking about makes me feel ignorant like I missed out on learning something that everyone else seemed to learn. Although I am good with computers I built my computer that I have now. I think if I had to pin point my skills I would say I like learning about computers and video games especially mmorpgs. I am constantly up to date on every new piece of news yeah I know its pretty nerdy but its just what interest me I guess I would love more then anything to become a video game journalist and work at one of those magazines like pc gamer or something. I wander what it would take for me to get into that field I already know enough about pretty much every game and I know how to get new info on them all the time I guess I would just have to learn how write better.